Dear Jesse

Dear Jesse,

It's too late to win my heart. Again.

It was yours for countless seasons without you even knowing it. I waited for you to be mine like I waited for the sunrise. Everyday. And everyday, you’d show up. In cups of coffee, in senseless songs, in bus rides and my tangled hair, you’re there. And you never knew.

It is too late to change my idea of love.

You were love. You were comfort. You were the one I never had to put a wall against. You picked a part of my brain and turned it into a poem. You were  there at every turn of the year and somehow that made it less scary. You always found a way to creep into the mundane and made it special. With you, everything was special. 

It is too late to break my heart.

Not today. Not here. Not even when you show up and tell me it was me all along. I have hoped for this day to come, too many seasons over. But, not even your tears can break my heart. Not when I have grown to embrace the life without you. I have long put down my pen and closed the story that has you in it. I have no more words. None, when my heart has finally decided to find a home in someone else's arms. 

But, it is not too late to find love again. Not here, not mine, but it will be the love you need.

Someday, I will wake up and the sunrise will remind me of you. Sunrises are always beautiful. Please remember,  you will always be that to me.

Love,

Celeste

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I watched "Meet Me in St. Gallen" yesterday and it had the same effect "Before Sunrise" had on me. I am tempted to explain the whole emotional profile of Celeste, as she writes this letter, but I wont. Many of us can relate to Celeste at one point in our lives. And so can many of us at Jesse. 

Happy Reading. And watch the movie. 

p.s. I have not done any review in this blog nor have I promoted anything, but this time, I am promoting the movie because of how artfully it was made. The joys, thrills, frustrations of Celeste and Jesse were raw and real. 

(Photo not mine)