Do You Know?

Look at me

Stand up and look me in the eye

Now,

Listen

Do you know I remember the first night we met?

And the nights after

When you kept saying hi?

Do you know I remember the first Christmas you called?

When I didnt remember

I gave you my number?

Do you know I remember the day you said ‘I love you SO MUCH?”

And I said, “thank you”

I thought it was really much

Do you know I remember asking you many times

What you mean by it

Coz you said it all the time?

Do you know I remember that you didn’t explain?

That you just think I’d dismiss it

And reasons would be vain?

Do you know I believed it with all my heart?

That I knew I was playing

A game with Art?

Do you know I believed all your explanations?

When I tried to run away

Because I couldn’t understand our situation?

Do you know I tried to un-love you?

But I reasoned with myself

Saying love is me

Do you know I never doubted you?

Do you know I appreciated every word you said?

Do you know I treasured all our conversations?

Do you know I remember your Valentine poem?

Do you remember saying it was for me?

Did you have a change of heart so fast?

Do you know I was in love with you?

Do you remember telling me if you were too?

Do you know I knew you weren’t?

Do you know I just wanted one answer?

You only had to choose

Between Yes and No

Do you know I held no anger?

Do you know I blamed no one?

Do you know I accepted defeat?

Do you know how it feels like to be made a fool?

Do you know I felt it?

Do you know I never blamed anyone for it?

Do you know I was determined to stay quiet?

Do you know someone you love talked me out of it?

Do you know I just couldn’t care?

Do you know I am now numb towards you?

Do you know the reason why I am writing this?

Do you know that if you say Yes

I still wouldn’t rest my case?

If you know

Stand up and look at me in the eye

If you know

let me know

Now,

Speak

i write in suppressed anger